Hello and welcome to the forum from South Carolina! Have you tried contacting Anchor? I don't have that pattern, but someone on the forum may be able to point you in the right direction. I am sorry to hear of your loss. It was several months after I lost my husband that I found the forum, which, for me, has been a wonderful experience! I hope that you can find the pattern and that you will stay with us as you return to your stitching. We love pictures and would love to see what you have done and what you are working on!